Assalammualaikum...
Dah lama gile x update blog ni, nk kata bz tuh sbnarnya x brapa nk bz, tp tu lar cume cam not in a mood nk tls pa pe kot..Nak2 ngh bz ngn preparation utk bln puasa t...aritu smpat gak lpak n burak2 ngn one of my fren..Lama gak x jmp dier,mklum lar msg2 bz ngn life msg2..Jgn kta dier, en taSuka pn dh berkurun sy x jmper...huhuhuhu...xder la berkurun sgt...ader lar about 6months gtu...Lau x pk mmg x rsa, tp ble dh pk2 mmg trasa sgt lar lma...kdg2 ader gak rsa tension, tp sy try lar gak nk bertahan...if not mmg alamat skejap jew lar jngka usia hubungan kiteorg, specially biler sy yg jns thp kesabaran tipis neyh...
Tak byk pn mnder mnrik yg berlaku, cume lately ni sy lbh sker menyendiri...xdpt lak nk identify...but seriously, sy lbh sng gtu..smlm sy gagahkn gak ikt mama n papa p family picnic ngn my aunt n cousin smer...1 of my cousin yg bru jew kawen early this year dh pregnant..huhuhu..xcited jew tgk dier ngn hubby dier...Sbnrnya sy krg sket nk ikt family gath ni, sbb nnt aunty2 sy including my first cousin tuh mmg akn tny sy sal BF..OMG! soalan yg mmg sy mls nk jwb n mls nk komen...Nk tmbh best ag ader sowg my younger cousin tuh mmg sy x berkenan giler pangai dier...Smlm ader gak derang tny bab BF ni, sy taw lar mama n papa sy pn mmg hrp sgt sy kawen sbb sy sorg jew pn anak derang kn..Cume xtaw lar nk xplain cane kat derang...
Sy taw status relationship sy, tp as we all know mmg parents xkn dpt nk phm smer tuh...rsa cam di telan mati mak di luah mati bapak...Kdg2 ati tuh trasa gak nk bitau jew keadaan yg sbnrnya...tp sy ni still leh pk waras gi...Sy taw if sy bitau my parents the truth, mende tu akn lbh memburukkn keadaan...Tp lau x bitau sy lar yg rsa x best...The best yg sy lh buat skank is DIAM -sigh- sy taw...terus diam bermkna sy mnipu dri sy, tp sy rsa better diam dr sy jd tanggang moden kn?? sbb sy blom ag trasa nk dpt achievement anak derhaka ni...ble pk2 sal ni, sy trigt mama sy citer kt sy 2-3 ari lps kot...(lupe lar plak biler...) Dier ckp dier mimpi sy maki dier, msa dier trsedar tuh air mata dier mengalir jew...Biler dgr gtu sy rsa berslh sgtttt...walaupn sy xde wt camtu n tu cuma mmp, tp seyesly, sy xnk jd penyebab air mata mama tuh mengalir...
Mmg slama ni sy rsa biase jew...tp to tell u the truth i am afraid, sbb sy xtaw smpai biler sy perlu terima smer ni...Sy cuma mampu merancang, yg menentukn ALLAH...
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