What if...??

Hai everyone,

Actually there's no interesting story to tell, it's just me writing something not that important to others in my blog...It's raining cats and dogs tonight, don't know why lately I kept thinking about my life. What I have now is what I really wanted, but more and more I question the choices I made. One day, a friend of mine talked about the problems she went through with her boyfriend. She was very much depressed by the problems that come continuously, and she thought of suicide because she was too depressed. Then I tried to advise her, because I do not want to aggravate the situation. I was not perfect, but I try my best to make her feel relieved by expressing the problems she faced, and i hope that it helped her. 


As i listened to her problem, i wonder about my own life. Is this what I want?If indeed this is what I want, I must accept all that will happen. Because we are not able to anticipate our future. In this kind of relationship, there are many obstacles and trials that I will encounter. Am I prepared to go through all this calmly later? The only question I need answered. Can I be put in second every time? Sometimes I wish to have someone who will be forever with me,a real mine. Then again, I do not know, let alone time to determine all this.